An Open Debate with God

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" I not sure that God always knows who are his great men. he is so very careless of waht happened to them while they live. " Reads the sign at my home. The sign is around my age 20 Years old. its wrapped in Plastic propably 25 years of age and has a picture of Mahatma Gandhi. This 20 year old sign was created by my mom's Brother. He died when I was in 4th standard.He was just married and back from a honeymoon that he was diagnosed with severe stomach infections and he was gone in a matter of four days. 5 Days before he died my grandmother still recals him buying her an ice cream and geting her seated in a train to kerela where she had to preside over the birth of her daughters son. The night he died, Same night was the day when my mothers sisters son was born .. I dont know how to define that in son in law or neice terms but i am just putting it to the front. Tears flow down my grandmothers eyes when she recalls the death of her son.I never cried I just never cried.15 years down the line people still ask me why you didnt cry when your mama died. I have no answer. God had just taken the power of speach away from me.

Death comes so fast and takes you away faster than you can feel it.Talking about death my wife ( Thats what i used to call her) came today and told me that she couldnt meet me in Delhi due to her mom who had found out about our relationship so she had stopped her daughter from meeting this no good useless fellow who came so long from nasik to meet her.In the end I ask her so what should I do ? I love you.. The girl says.. I am sorry Ashwin You continue with your life. My heart is struck with regor mortis then and there. 500 days in love and one day she says go on with your life. I was hurt and sad , I came home and saw this frame standing on the top Speaking about Gandhi. Now recollecting all that I feel How can a man devote time to enjoyment and other activities which are termed unneccessary by the common minnimum agenda group. There are so many things that can be done. Falling into a relation is very good and lucrative. You talk about love, Future life, kids, And all such good good things. But you know the true essence of love is not just in talk but in acts. Acts which you help you and your lover to get on top . There is a competition between each other for inter development which leads to a feeling that YES we live for each other. THis may not appeal to all those lovers over there but believe me there is many things that can be done if the world can spare some time for the poor, The stray dogs and many causes. But we just turn a blind eye to these things. As the Girl told me go on with your life. I thank her a lot for giving me a door to a new life which I believe can spend for betterment of stray dogs and animals.

Talking of Causes I feel like I been diagnosed by a Cardiologist for a Bypass surgery so my diet will be going down the drain for a few days. Total Cleansing of the body will be needed. No more spices! Coming to the Indian Food and Summers Read the next entry!

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